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BLM

November 7, 2016 - COLOURED
BLM

She dodged the mirrors decorating the bathrooms and walls. The sight of her reflection was too foul, too disfigured she couldn’t stand her own appearance. Her body built bulky, it out weighed her personality. Her stomach rolled on, layers upon layers of negro stories each holding a secret, she had many to tell but no one listened. Heavy Chunky Thighs made Heavy Black Burdens. She used to vomit and cut out the excess in an effort to obtain “the best version of herself”. No matter what lengths she went to impress the boys at school, we all know with the tags she wore on her back that read ” Black, Fat, and Angry” were of the least desirable kind. Black eyes that begged to be considered brown and beautiful seen fatalities of the colorful kind. She saw rainbows smeared on the streets, colours ranging from blue to white, black to red and everything in between. Cruel commentary cuts through her layers of skin with a sharp knife and an Orange BIC Lighter. Exposed flesh painted with blood, skin torn from her wrists to her elbows read her deepest fears and thoughts. Her blood dripped all over her collection of suicide notes, in total there was more blood lost to the papers then there was circulating her body.

Black and Beautiful only applied to the ones who could pass the paper bag test. Other’s like her forced cotton down their throats and bit down on their tongues every time the master called them a “Nigger Bitch”. Her beauty was in the eye of her beholder, and he held her, he held her down with rope to the wooden bed frame and a gun to her forehead as he raped her. No bullet could have done the damage of his bastard babies they penetrated through more then just flesh, they impregnated her mind. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. She never knew her own beauty.

She stood in her bathroom facing the mirror.

It had been the first time she had looked at herself in months.

Something about her appearance was so familiar but too foreign.

Tweezers in one hand, while a tight grip in the other.

Raising her hands to her face, they shook.

She had no control.

Puncturing her pimples deemed imperfections.

Blood and puss ran from her forehead,

like the tears of her mother

while she sat next to her dying daughter’s hospital bed reading her latest goodbyes.

Scars mimicking bullet holes.

Her skin so dark, so deep, you can’t see the blemishes.

She’s covered in them.

She wrote and bled.

And wrote more and then bled more

but this time her head hit the ground before her last drop of blood even touched the paper.

She didn’t think her wishes would ever come true so suddenly or early,

without any warning but unfortunately for her they didn’t.

 

 Drugged on her insecurities.

Fed intimacy to stay stable.

Wounds bound with abuse,

no bandages were needed in this process.

 

She opened her big black eyes.

Awake, naked and vulnerable her nightmares became her reality.

 She was terrified of everyone seeing,

 

the hips that bared children of rape,

none of them would know their own father.

The skin, bruised, beaten, cracked,

white lines covering black skin

made by

white whips cracking onto black backs.

The arms that spent hours on end behind her head

as the man in blue was looking

 for his weapon of execution

as he screamed “Stop resisting arrest !”

He was all out of bullets.

Bullets

that she prayed they would place at the foot of her grave

because no girl, no person of that complexion is worthy of flowers.

Bullets

that she was too familiar with

embedded in the roots and branches of her tree.

   Bullets

that pierced

but would never leave the mark

of a child.

Skin stretched beyond her shadowed confinements

a womb brought into the light.

Half-white, Half-ashamed.

The stretch marks wrapping around her body

like the ropes around her peoples’ necks as they hung from trees.

Oh, how their bodies swayed in the wind like flags,

Tree branches like flag poles.

The real confederation flags.

Blue, Red, Black


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2 thoughts on “BLM

Hanna

This. Is. amazing. Omg, beautiful poem

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hopeforlife

Kemi,

Wow. This is such a stunning poem.

I think my favorite line in the whole piece was,

“She was terrified of everyone seeing/the hips that bared children of rape. . .”

Honestly, that line is so powerful–it rips right through you because it is such a slap in the face. The subject matter that you tackled in this piece is very heavy and serious, and I think you articulated everything absolutely beautifully–I feel like every line fits together in the sense that (in the way I interpreted this poem) the narrator seems to be talking about several different situations yet all these situations seem to fit together to create one big picture and one message as a whole.

I’ve never read anything quite like this, and was absolutely blown away by your beautiful writing and storytelling.

One thing I have to offer in terms of improvement would be to maybe revise the formatting of this piece? Because in some parts it reads as prose (with the way you formatted it) and in others it reads as poetry.

Overall, excellent job on this beautiful piece.

-Hope

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